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He falls in love with someone back then who, when he goes back to the present time, it breaks his heart. Or so we think, but later when he sees her again, she has not aged. She is no different. Two things I found confusing. One, there are so many characters in his past life.

Maybe that is to get us to read the next part of the series, but as emotionally satisfying as that may be, it is intellectually confusing in a way that the rest of the book is not. You are commenting using your WordPress. You are commenting using your Twitter account. You are commenting using your Facebook account. Notify me of new comments via email. Rosebud Book Reviews Making books fun to read again! It is an unusual approach that is very effective. I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Joel is my new favourite time-travelling character. He is everything a stud, time-travelling brilliant and smart guy should be. He handles the fact, that he has indeed walked into a time-machine and come 59 years before his time, pretty well and starts acting accordingly. Among the other characters, Ginny really stands out. She is this amazing women whom you really idealize and start respecting instantly. John has left a lot of big authors far behind in the race when it comes to character building atleast for me! The plot is amazing and develops slowly in a very subtle way.

It ends beautifully and leaves you craving for more and more. From the historical point of view, as far as I know, John has paid very close attention to the details which is highly commendable. Conclusion The Mine is a beautifully written book and definitely a must read. You can also read this review at The Reading Bud Nov 29, Anastacia rated it it was ok Shelves: In the beginning are two teenage boys out for a good time. I enjoyed the interaction and enjoyed where the story was going. The main character goes back in time, and that's when the book lost me. I've been "taught" that good historical fiction - the definition of a book being historical fiction - is that the storyline wouldn't make sense if it was dumped into any other time or place.

I don't believe this book fits the bill not that the book is labeled as historical fiction, because it's not; but In the beginning are two teenage boys out for a good time. I don't believe this book fits the bill not that the book is labeled as historical fiction, because it's not; but it does take place in the 's which means the book is striving for at least some historical fiction elements.

Joel, as most characters in time travel books do, doesn't need much more than five minutes to adapt to the fact that he's living in the past. If I was thrust into a different time period I'd be freaking out for more than five minutes, and Joel doesn't freak at all. Reading other reviews would lead me to believe that this was well written historical fiction, but I didn't particular feel like Joel was walking down a 's world - there were too many references to too many things that weren't historical accurate, for one thing. Then all of a sudden the book starts talking about another character with no reference to what time frame Grace is in, leaving me confused and pissed off and not really wanting to read another page.

You eventually figure it out, but the author could have inserted a heading or started a new chapter or something to make you aware of what was going on. The action continues, though at a much slower pace then I would prefer and without spoiling anything, the book of course ends. The book was written well enough, well edited, the premise was ideal, but all in all it wasn't my cup of tea.

Mar 16, Sherrod Wall rated it it was amazing. There are so many wonderful aspects within the pages of this novel. I don't know where to begin. I guess that's a good beginning as any: I'm at a loss for words. The Mine sets a high standard for the romance genre. Its sci-fi undertones provide enigma and wonderment. I really have not read anything like it before.

Well's, The Time Machine, was the best time-traveling novel I had read and my favorite sci-fi tale. I would dare say that this novel equaled what I felt when I finished that classi There are so many wonderful aspects within the pages of this novel. I would dare say that this novel equaled what I felt when I finished that classic. My mouth hung open. Simultaneously the hairs on my arm stood up. Heldt's prose holds that kind of power over a reader, as if some kind of mystical energy is channeled through his words as they are read and processed.

Reader's will fall in love with Joel, one of The Mine's major characters. His sense of humor lights up every scene he is in. Joel's characterization fits the romance genre perfectly. I cannot say much about his character's progression without spoiling the plot, but I can say that his decisions throughout the novel are believable and make him a very dynamic character. Heldt always provides well-thought out descriptions of his characters, using similes and metaphors to bring their most unique qualities into focus. His rendering of must make readers feel as if he, himself went back to the time period, took extensive notes and returned with the barebones of The Mine in hand.

Heldt will show you how its done. I recommend The Mine for readers who enjoy thrilling romance novels: Oct 13, Unfazeable Reader rated it liked it Shelves: Joel Smith, in weeks leading up to his college graduation, takes off on a road trip with his friend Adam. When in Minnesota, they stumble upon an abandoned gold mine, which Joel, a cocky geologist that he is, decides to enter. He sees a snake, a glowing chamber … things get murky … he passes out … he wakes up and leaves the mine to discover … it is a memorial day of He finds his way back to his hometown Seattle, WA, where he is befriended by a guy named Tom.

Tom helps him out with his housi Joel Smith, in weeks leading up to his college graduation, takes off on a road trip with his friend Adam. Tom helps him out with his housing situation, job, even the ladies. Tom becomes his best friend. Temptations to mess with the past ensue. It absorbed me like a sponge soaking up spilled wine — Solid pacing, albeit slow and meandering. I understand, the main character is worried about the whole butterfly effect and shifting the paradigm—as any sane person traveling back in time should.

I want fire, I want sparkles, I want the unexpected. Oh, and did I mention that Joel is selfish? Even when Joel emerged out of the mine in , he kind of just shrugged and went about his day like it was just another Tuesday. When he met the younger version of his grandmother, where was the total WTF moment? HOW could this be construed as something so ordinary?! Read complete review on Unfazeable Reader: Nov 13, Daccari Buchelli rated it it was amazing. Whilst exploring an abandoned mine on a hiking trip with buddy Adam, Joel finds himself transported back in time, to the s.

At first, he is anxious to return home, but when he meets twenty-one-year-old Grace, a st John. At first, he is anxious to return home, but when he meets twenty-one-year-old Grace, a stunning and intelligent blonde, he may just have a change of heart. Both characters are equally fascinating; Joel with his sharp wit and carefree attitude, and Grace with and her complex life history, and the way in which she lights up around Joel from the start.

Joel meets many wonderful new friends, who help him to develop a lot over the course of the book. He at first only seems faintly connected to his own emotions, but as each of these newcomers finds a place in his heart and mind, we find him delving deeper into himself. I felt as though I was experiencing Joel's every emotion alongside him and was frequently on the edge of my seat. Forbidden love and cocky humor are key in this tale. There was a good amount of foreshadowing, which made it in some ways a predictable read. Don't let that deter you. Every moment counted in this novel. We see Joel make some impossible decisions; decisions that made me question every one I have ever made in my life.

I asked myself, 'Would I be willing to make these same decisions, given the choices presented to Joel? The Author's style of writing makes for fluid reading, and also paints subtle pictures of every scene. A read well worth your time and a great accomplishment. Oct 29, Dale rated it it was amazing. The description of this book does a good job of telling you what the book is about. What you find out from reading it, is that the author created some amazing characters and really brought them to life during this story.

I literally just finished this book minutes ago and couldn't keep myself from getting on here to sing its praises.

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I didn't expect to like this book so much, what a terrific surprise. Others have done well in their summation of the events that occur so I won't reiterate them her The description of this book does a good job of telling you what the book is about. Others have done well in their summation of the events that occur so I won't reiterate them here. Did I say how much I liked this book yet??? You don't need to be a sci-fi or time travel fan to like this book. I'm really not loving this story. I'm guessing all of the plot twists in advance and the protagonist is annoying me because he's so 'perfect'.

I've been trying to read this book for almost a month now and it's just putting me in a slump, I think I'm done with it for now: Oct 13, Katherine rated it did not like it. The first in a series of time-travel romance novels, John A. Full of fluffy dialogue, indistinguishable characters, anachronistic diction and unnecessary exposition, I felt that it could have been better done, and although Heldt's writing is above average, the novel is at best mediocre; at worst it was infuriating.

Joel stood in the middle of the sidewalk and stared blankly at a grocery store across the street. It ad The first in a series of time-travel romance novels, John A. It advertised bread for eight cents a loaf and milk for thirty-four cents a gallon. A pickup truck honked as it passed, snapping him out of his daze. He peered down the street in both directions and decided to head south, toward the downtown core. He entered his strange new world with angst, disbelief, and wonder. However, Joel enters the cave in and emerges in Stranded without valid money or friends, he must find his feet in a world he knows of through history books, in the town he grew up in, in a year before he was born.

Along the way, he meets Grace, a dazzling blonde who is unfortunately engaged to another man. With Pearl Harbor looming in the near future, and the consequences of America's involvement in the second World War weighing heavily on his mind, as well as the risk that changing anything could negate his own existence, Joel has a difficult decision to make. The festivities ended at nine, after two girls left for the library and Linda left for the ladies' room. She gave back to Harlan's on three separate occasions.

Grace provided comfort each time, helping Linda to a sink to wash her face and then to a glass of water to wash her throat. At the end of round three, Grace wiped a bit of celebration from the hem of her white cotton dress. Initially the writing seemed pretty good, and as I settled in to read the novel, I thought the premise was an interesting one.

However, as I read on, I became more and more infuriated by this novel. From the start, I couldn't distinguish Adam and Joel from each other; they were both pretty flat characters. In fact, with the exception of a few stylized caricatures in side characters who appeared once and were never seen again, the majority of the characters in this novel were Barbie and Ken dolls. They're all gorgeous, articulate, intelligent, and distinguishable only by hair colour and certain plot-related vices.

Their reactions to any given situation are a smile, a grin, or a laugh. It was a good thing that the author frequently explained explicitly who everyone was, to remind me. As Grace stepped away from Tom, she threw her eyes at Joel. His beautiful smile was back. It was the smile from Forty-Seventh Street and not the one she needed to see tonight. The biggest weakness of the novel, for me, was the stilted and unnatural dialogue, which seemed to focus more on exposition than anything.

Furthermore, there were pages and pages of unnecessary dialogue that was amateur, repetitive and dull. Dialogue should never be used as filler; it should provide an insight into characters through what they say and don't say, and should reflect the different ways that different people speak. In this novel, all the characters followed the same linguistic patterns, and what they were saying was boring.

There was frequent call-and-response dialogue which was excruciatingly dull to read, and often the dialogue simply rehashed what had happened on previous pages. Besides, it's your birthday. You're supposed to have fun. I might still be walking the streets looking for work had you not given me a break. We're happy to have you. Dad thinks you're the best salesman on the planet, Mom wants to adopt you, and Brenda wants to bear your children. That's what I call a productive week. While some attempt was made to depict the s accurately, through descriptions of clothing and cars, a great deal more could have been done with the way the characters spoke and behaved.

For instance, Ginny contemplating her "relationship status" felt a little post-Facebook to me; even though it is a phrase that may have been used in the s, its current connection to social media is so strong that it seemed anachronistic regardless. Further complicated by the s setting was the depiction of women. While women may have been relegated to certain social roles in the 40s, we are supposed to be experiencing the novel from Joel's 21st century perspective. As such, a lot of the descriptions of women made me swoon onto my chaise-longue, calling for the smelling salts as my female weakness got the best of me.

Ginny pushed several boxes to the wall, making a path as she went, and strutted into the kitchen. She returned a moment later with a broom, a dustpan, and resolve. Let's make this house a home. It also felt over-written; every action was described in great detail. As far as time-travel romances go, I feel that while this is a great deal better than a lot of self-published romance I've read, it is not at all in the same league as something like Audrey Niffenegger's The Time-Traveller's Wife.

I think Heldt has potential, and with some work on the dialogue and some thick-skinned editing of the cliches, sexism and purple prose, the novel could greatly improve. Joel marveled at the ease with which she handled suds.

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Jana could pour a gallon of beer into a teacup and not spill a drop or leave a head thicker than a quarter of an inch. Like Ginny Gillette, the former beauty queen was a girl who could play with the boys on their turf, and not leave an ounce of her femininity on the sidelines. The cliches, purple prose, repetitive dialogue and expository writing ground the pace to a drunken stumble, and while the premise and plot were interesting, they could not rescue it. I would not recommend it.

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To read more of my reviews, and find out what kinds of books I do recommend, please visit my blog. I must compliment the wit and creativity of the writer. The story was a well-thought-out adventure in time travel. This college kid, Joel Smith, is a dare devil of sorts, the type of risk taker that everyone secretly envies but would publicly ridicule.

He and his friend Adam were on a five-day bike-and-hike trip to Wyoming from their college campus and hometown in Seattle. The guys needed a break from studies and relationships and decided to go on this mini adventure a couple weeks before finals. After grubbing at a local diner in Montana, they headed back on the road but encountered some construction. Impatient Joel discovered a gravelly, dirt road as a detour and decided to explore. He was especially enticed by a sign that pointed to an old gold mine that had been closed for years.

Adam hesitantly agreed and waited outside. This is where the story pulled me in. A glowing light, a snake and a bump on the head later, Joel was catapulted into He exits the mine looking for Adam and, instead, finds himself in a whole other realm of existence. Heldt did a wonderful job of making the characters believable for the era.

I felt like I went back in time also. Joel found himself in a time with no Internet, credit cards, cell phones or technological luxuries. He was broke and inappropriately dressed with a band-themed T-shirt and cowboy hat. He ran into his grandmother and her friends, all of whom he became very close to while trying to hide his true identity. He even fell head-over-heels in love with a friend of hers named Grace who was engaged to another man.

The characters were likeable, and the one I had an issue with was Linda who came across way to moody and possessive of Joel. Too bad she got ousted from the love triangle. It was a balanced mix of romance, chaos, friendship and dilemmas as Joel made himself as comfortable as he could in He had no idea if he would see his modern world ever again. It made me wonder if I could have pulled that off so smoothly. I remained eager as the story progressed. No matter what they asked him, Joel had an explanation for everything.

I He stayed with his new friend Tom's family, and it was a tense scene when Tom's mom was innocently snooping and discovered Joel's cell phone! She urged her husband to ask him about it, but that never happened. The time eventually came when he knew he had to make crucial decision, stay or leave the '40s and the love of his life behind? Logic was his guide in deciding to head back to the mine in hopes of rediscovering the portal back home to I was disappointed by the ending of this book as it seemed way too abrupt.

Yes, it was a happy one and all, but it seemed rather forced, like Heldt was so exhausted after writing this whole, amazing story that he just wore out at the end and hurried it passed the finish line. Opinions about story endings are subjective, and this is MY book review. So you might feel differently about it. It left me wanting more. If this was a series, I would have wasted no time in getting book two. So, I highly advise you to read The Mine! Those who like time-travel novels with romance. This review can also be found on My Fiction Nook.

This was an incredibly moving read, and an exceptional debut offering from a new author. Small spoilers in the review below. Joel Smith is about to graduate from college in the year when he and his friend Adam stop at an abandoned mine near Helena, MT. On that day, a rare cosmic event takes place, and when Joel steps into the mine, he is somehow transported back in time to , shortly before Pearl Harbor and the US entering WWII. Without an This review can also be found on My Fiction Nook. Without any means credit cards were not yet invented, his cell phone doesn't work , Joel makes his way to Seattle where he fortuitously encounters a young man, Tom Carter, in a precarious situation.

From there, Joel meets and becomes friends with Tom's family and friends, gets a job and forges a new life. Tom is friends with Ginny Gillette - who is also Joel's grandmother and quite a special character. When Joel meets Grace Vandenberg, he forgoes his plan to not do anything that might change the future and subsequently falls in love with her.

The author did a fantastic job researching the time period shortly before the US entered into the 2nd World War and created an exquisite line-up of characters that really made this book shine. The situations Joel finds himself in, knowing what the future holds and yet unable to say anything, are finely crafted to forward the plot. And yet he also gives Joel enough spunk to bet on sports events for which he knows the outcomes, thus giving him a way to make a little money on top of his job.

When Joel realizes that the rare cosmic event will happen in , on the same night that Japanese fighter planes attack Pearl Harbor, he is faced with a huge decision - stay and possibly die in the coming war, or go back into his own time and thus leaving the woman he loves behind. While this book on the surface may look like a simple time traveling story, with a young man having to choose to either stay or return to his own time, it's actually a deeply moving account of the mindsets of young people during that critical time frame in which it takes place.

One of his new friends is a Japanese-American, and Joel knows what's likely in store for her. He wonders what he can do to help her, and finds a way. He knows that Tom will not survive the war, because Tom is not the man his grandmother married, and that knowledge weighs heavily on his mind. I found it hard to determine a fitting genre for this book as it transcends a mere romance, yet is also not a simple sci-fi novel either, or even just a historical fiction.

The author cleverly combines these genres to deliver a novel that is refreshingly different. As far as future-travel novels go, this one avoided all of the cliches that seem to permeate that genre - Joel actually has knowledge of the time period and uses that to his advantage, yet always keeps in mind that were he to say too much, he might irrevocably change the future, not only for those people he meets, but also himself.

And he realizes that his budding romance with Grace is selfish, but he's also human enough to not be able to help himself. He's honest with himself, and I appreciated that in his character. All events are seen through Joel's eyes, and his sometimes snarky silent commentary was rather humorous on occasion. The author crafted a strong protagonist, with all the characteristics of a 22 year old, but also much heart.

I had a rather difficult time putting this down for any long measure of time. It enthralled me from the first few chapters, and kept me invested throughout. The climax of the story was what I had hoped for, and I am so grateful the author chose to go that route. Reading about Joel weeping view spoiler [in his room when he looks at his grandmother's box of pictures hide spoiler ] had me in tears myself.

Heldt's writing is utterly brilliant, and the way he built the tension as the days progressed towards December 7, was very impressive. I foresee a long, successful career for this author, if he continues to deliver books of this caliber. Thank you, Sir, for bringing your book to my attention. It was a pleasure reading your novel. I look forward to your next offering.

I received a free electronic copy of this book directly from the author as a review request. A positive review was not promised in return. Jul 13, Dragana rated it really liked it Shelves: Always when a story featuring time travel is mentioned, Back To The Future movies jump into my mind. They are one of my childhood favorites. But, although main hero does meet his grandmother, The Mine could not be compared to them. Best comparison is the novel The Outlander and similar romance novels.

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Although time travel is used as plot device, The Mine is a story about love, growing up and life in general. Joel Smith might start the journey as pampered, youngest son who never knew fatigue and h Always when a story featuring time travel is mentioned, Back To The Future movies jump into my mind. Joel Smith might start the journey as pampered, youngest son who never knew fatigue and hunger, but everything will change when he ends up in Mobile phones do not work.

And if it worked, who he gonna called? Credit cards are invalid. Even a little bit of cash he has is printed in the future and is regarded as forgery. Honestly, I expected Joel to fail. But he surprised me. With hard work, never losing his optimism and sparkling humor and positive look at life, he manages not only to survive but to find friends, love and grow up. All the adjectives I used for Joel can be used for John A. Light, easy to read, with specific type of humor which for me felt just right.

One weird quirk in writing is that John A. Heldt tried to not repeat names of the characters too much. This impersonal attitude toward characters makes connecting to them a bit harder. With Brenda babysitting and Tom and Joel returning from Westport, Sandy Carter had no one to cook for and no one to talk to, save the inattentive man hiding behind a newspaper at the other end of the table.

The only thing in The Mine that did not sparkle is the romance. I mean Joel traveled back in time - I expected the love story to be epic and the girl to be one of the kind. And although others told me that this is the case and that she is amazing etc. I was not impressed. If you are looking for action involving time traveling twists, then The Mine is not for you. Recommended for lovers of thoughtful time-traveling romance novels. I received this ebook from author in exchange for a fair and honest review.

This text is also posted on my blog Bookworm Dreams in a little bit more styled edition. Jun 30, Jamie Kline rated it it was amazing Shelves: Who doesn't love the idea of time travel? Getting to witness different parts of history would be pretty amazing. It would also be a little terrifying and confusing.

In The Mine, college student Joel's adventurous spirit leads him to an abandoned mine in Montana.

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Despite his best friend's frustrations, he insists on taking a look inside and gets more than he bargained for, waking up in a different time. I tried to imagine what it would be like if I got dropped in the middle of I Who doesn't love the idea of time travel? I rarely ever carry cash, I wouldn't have a cell phone to call for help, and more importantly I wouldn't have anyone to call even if I did need help, because no one would believe you if you told them the truth. I would be incredibly frightened and distraught.

Joel on the other hand handles himself a lot better than I would have. Of course he's understandably disoriented by all of the things he has to adapt to, but he immediately sets out to find a way to survive. Joel was really brave, charming, and confident; it's no wonder he found friends almost immediately.

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They all had an impact on his life, but there were two that altered his life in a major way. The first person he really gets to know is Tom; Joel helps him out of a pretty intense situation and Tom returns the favor by helping Joel get on his feet. The other is Grace, a blonde-haired beauty who is friends with Joel's 21 year old grandmother. I know, weird right? Grace is newly engaged, however that doesn't stop Joel from pursuing her. I really liked them together; she was a little quiet at first, but wasn't afraid to put him in his place if he did or said something she didn't like.

Despite all of the obstacles between them, they were just drawn to each other. As I watched their relationship grow, all I could do was worry with each page because I had a feeling that Joel would get the chance to return to the year at some point and I wondered what he would do if that happened. On one hand, his entire life was 59 years in the future; his parents, his friends, his girlfriend, and college, which he was close to graduating from. On the other, he met Grace, whom he had an immediate connection with, and many other friends in the new life he had built. I honestly wasn't sure what to expect.

No, I will not tell you what happens at the end. I will say that I didn't realize how emotionally invested I had become in these characters until I had tears running down my face. It was a combination of the story itself and how the author chose to have the events unfold; they simply affected me in a way that's hard to describe. Were they happy tears, sad tears, frustrated tears? I guess that's for you to find out when you read The Mine. If you would like to read more of my reviews, please visit my book review blog, Lucky Devil Reviews.

I had mixed feelings about this book at the beginning, but by the end, I loved it, and the empathy it aroused for those caught up in the events of WW2 will never leave me. On the surface it looks like a simple story about a man who finds himself catapulted back to a previous time where he falls in love and later must decide if he will stay or return to his own time - alone, but there is a great deal more to it than that because of the brilliant way that Heldt has written the world of and th I had mixed feelings about this book at the beginning, but by the end, I loved it, and the empathy it aroused for those caught up in the events of WW2 will never leave me.

On the surface it looks like a simple story about a man who finds himself catapulted back to a previous time where he falls in love and later must decide if he will stay or return to his own time - alone, but there is a great deal more to it than that because of the brilliant way that Heldt has written the world of and the unique challenges facing his central character.

Heldt undoubtedly knows his craft. The book is tight, insightful, clearly expressed and moving. In , Joel Smith is a cocky, adventurous young man who sees the world as his playground. Stuck in the age of Whirlaway, swing dancing, and a peacetime draft, Joel begins a new life as the nation drifts toward war. THE MINE follows a humbled man through a critical time in history as he adjusts to new surroundings and wrestles with the knowledge of things to come. Imagine if you lived in the US before that nation entered the second world war and you knew what was coming. Imagine that the man your grandmother loved and lost in the war became your best friend.

What would you say to a Japanese American friend when you know how their fellow Americans will turn on them after the US enters the war? These are the kind of questions that give this story its depth. I was very impressed with how the author built the tension as the date for Pearl Harbour came closer. Like the best Indie books, it defies exact genre classification. Oct 22, April Wood rated it it was amazing. On the way home, Joel gets the idea to explore an abandoned mine, with thoughts of gold and glory as an outcome.

However, his outcome is very different… He walks out to different surroundings, in a different time period. He tried to maintain a tenuous hold on what was left of his sanity.